Catching up!!

So, I have been very lazy about keeping up with my blog - for many reasons! First off, I didn't want to spend time writing about how life kept shitting on us. Second, I have been busier being a stay at home mom then I was being a working mom - I have been helping my family out by watching my 10 month old niece (Alice) and my two nephews (Bryson 2 years old and Braeden 4 years old) and keeping up with Evie. Third, I feel guilty spending my time working on my blog when I should be searching for a job.
As for life shitting on us, our septic is finally completed for a whoping $15,000 instead of the $22,000 we thought it would be. Who would have thought that a 15 grand solution would be a relief? I have not found a job yet, had a couple of interviews but the pay was too low or they decided I was not a good fit. I am still getting unemployment so we are staying a float but I am sick of seeing something we need or want and saying "someday, when we have money again". Brian's job is still very unstable and every day he comes home with different news - honey, I am going to lose my job in July- honey, we may have found a solution- honey, the company is moving to Maryland, how do you feel about relocating- honey, I am going to lose my job in August. I decided to not listen to it anymore - there is no sense in worrying about it - what will happen, will happen!
Amazingly I have been able to keep the stress out of the house and focus on Evie. She is the one saving grace at this moment and she is the reason we keep going everyday. I wake every morning to her babbling away in her crib, playing with her toys. When I walk into her room she is usually sitting or attempting to stand and she looks up at me with the biggest smile- as if I am the best thing she has ever seen. We start off with a bottle of milk (yup, Evie is totally off the formula and drinking whole milk) while mommy has a cup of tea. We then play for a little bit, do dishes and pick up, and then have breakfast. Evie usually has yogurt and a fresh fruit - something she can pick up and eat on her own. We get ready for the day - shower, get dressed, and do our hair. Usually Evie is tired by this point so she takes an hour nap while I job search. If it is nice out we will go out and play - if it is raining we find something to do within the house. Evie's favorite passtime is walking around while holding my fingers- she is so cute - she will walk through one room, take a break so she can dance and then we make it through another room. Of course, the next step is lunch- fresh fruit, ham and cheese roll, cottage cheese and ritz crackers. Then there is more playing or running errands and another nap and more job searching. Luckily, Brian comes home around 5 and helps with dinner, bathtime and a few minutes of relaxing. Evie has gotten into a terrible habbit - she has strep throat a month ago and was soooo sick- I started laying with her on our bed to put her to sleep and once she was out, move her to her crib. Now she doesn't want to go to sleep unless one of us lays with her. This is a bad habit cause someday I am going to have a job and will need to get all my stuff done at night - for now, this is the best time of my day!! We lay in bed, talk and cuddle- she will look at me with those beautiful, blue eyes and smile the biggest smile and my heart melts every time. She will crawl around, sit up and wiggle until she has found the perfect spot- usually with her head on my leg and her feet in my face, she then sighs (too big of sigh for such a little girl) and will fall asleep- it is the most magical time of the day!!!